Fearing the unknown is all I really fear...

Okay, so Maybe I am a little harsh on you. Maybe I am always angry at you. But I do have right to be... And so do you, I know this, so be mad at me. I don't care! I thought I couldn't live without you, I thought I didn't know a life that didn't have you as a main event in it... But I do, I can live, I AM living! And at the moment, you're barely surfacing in my life, you're there sometimes, like English or when we go out in groups or something, but I Barely see you now a days, and I'm not dead, I'm surviving. Yes, things feel like they suck for me right now, I'm on a Down Year (I'd say day but its been far too long to just be a day or a week) I'm going to be on a Down Year for a while, I Know this. Because I don't have anything to pull me back from my seclusion behind my walls. I have nothing to ground me to the world. To keep me here for more than half an hour... I can deal with this darkness, this emptiness, but what I can't deal with is me constantly being angry at you, and you being angry at me all the time. I don't physically have the energy to argue, to be angry... I don't have it in me anymore. I'm Drained. I have Nothing left in me to be angry now, its all gone, so you can continue being angry if you want to, but I'm done, I've forgotten the reason I was angry! Just be warned, next time you decide to bite my head off or something, I won't bite back, I'll just walk away. And you'll never get me back... Eugh! It would be SO EASY to say these things to you. But I wont. Because how would you react? Much love for my followers and support that I get from all of you :) I'm here for you just as you are for me, just in-case you ever need to talk :) <3