I NEED to cut.
Every fibre of my being is telling me so.
I need the release.
The rush.
I need to get away.
Escape.
It'd be so easy.
Just to pick up that blade.
Cut, cut, cut.
But that fucking promise is stopping me!
WHY do I promise these things?!
I don't know what to do.
I'm freaking out.
Everything is piling on top of me.
Its all too much.
I was given an ultimatum today, 'stop helping people, or lose me.'
I chose to lose him.
I cant give up helping people, how dare he suggest it!
I cant help people right now though.
I don't even care about them.
I want to die.
I want to die.
I want to die.
I want to die.
Everything is so unclean, out of order.
The voices call to me
'Cut' they say, 'lose control' they say
'Join us once again' they say.
I cant stay strong, don't know what to do.
Lost. So lost.
It hurts.
I'm trapped, no escape.
No turning back.
Help Me.
I'm really hoping you didn't cut after writing this. I know how easy it is to be sucked into it. Please try and stay strong xx
ReplyDeleteStay strong. Please. You can do it. I believe in you.
ReplyDeletePretty girlie x
ReplyDeleteI cant tell you not to cut because like me and b/p'in my bf tells me not too but im so stressed or upset thats all i can think about doing.
Let us know your ok wont you, much love x
im sorry i dont comment anymore
ReplyDeletei hope u manage not to cut
im a hypocrite to say dont
i know how much the feeling consumes u to
:(
much love
xx
Stay strong. You'll feel so much better tomorrow knowing you resisted than you will if you give in. But I'm such a hypocrite telling you that, so I won't judge you at all if you gave in. I've stopped trying, so the fact you're trying to resist shows how much stronger than me you are.
ReplyDeleteI hope you're okay and that you're feeling better now.
Take care.