My Little Insecurities

I'm in the "Danger Zone" right now... In more ways than one. Lets start with food. Me and it have a Love/Hate relationship, its switched to Love right now. Like everything else is but that's later's topic. I don't eat a lot per-say, but when I do eat, its most likely to be chocolate that I'm eating...(-.-) Not Good. And what's worse, I can't seem to bring myself to do any exercise (¬_¬) (Yes, faces in brackets are my new thing, Deal with it ;D) It doesn't help that my sisters' always in the room with me on her laptop, and she wakes me up at the crack of dawn going on it because she's fucking obsessed (-.-) But she's always in my room with me and its like "Leave me alone, I can't exercise my fat as fuck body with you watching!" And then there's the me in the "Danger Zone" in a 'Love' way. I don't know if I like this feeling, its one of vulnerability and awareness of how un-single I am... Its un-nerving because, I've never allowed myself to get this far into a 'relationship' I don't like the feeling of being tied down because as much as I ADORE! this person I'm with, I'm always going to feel claustrophobic after a while of being tied down... It makes me feel really insecure because what if I do something wrong and slip up and loose them as a best friend as well as loose them all together, just because I did something wrong somewhere along the lines whilst I was trying desperately to be a good person? What if I HURT them? What if I loose myself along the way, what if I stop believing in what I believe in because it doesn't conform with this new way I have to think because I'm with someone? I hate this questioning myself thing, because I know its just my insecurity talking... But what if its right? I was watching these "My Secrets" things on youtube and the "If You Really Knew Me" ones too, and I was sat there feeling really sorry for these people, but thinking about what I'd put on mine... I was actually thinking of posting one on here... Maybe just with words like a post like I'm doing now, or a real video, a real one showing things that only... that only I'd let you people know... Think its a good idea? Which should I pick if yes? The video or the post? Let me know okay :) Blessed Be my Angels <3