Busy night of nothing planned...

Well its day 5, and I feel terrible -.- Today is the hardest, if I can get past today then I'll be fine. But 100 calories, for a whole day? Whoever invented this diet was some sadistic mother-fucker. I mean, I like the empty feeling, its a good feeling, but...its hard -.- I feel the constant urge to do Loads of exercise. Like LOADS. Its so weird, but when I'm not eating, I'm thinking about what I can eat...When I'm not allowed to eat, because I've done my limit for the day, I'm thinking about exercising it all off...I had an English assessment today, and I had to scribble out my last three lines or so, because they were all me convincing myself that I wasn't hungry, and I didn't even realise I'd wrote it until I re-read my work...Things will get better right? I mean, when I'm thin, I'll be perfect, I'll be everything I want, and everything will be okay...right? I don't know, I feel philosophical today and stuff, I'm going to go weigh myself then deduct ten pounds from that weight because of my vigorous exercise evening I have planned, no sir. No drinking night for me, no parties or just generally going out, I'm going to exercise and get thinner so I can feel decent looking when I do finally go out somewhere, like parties, I want to look nice in anything I wear because I'm not fat, and I want everyone to be jealous, that's all I care about right now, all I really want is to be thin. And I will be thin... Bye <3